Thankful to be me...

I am thankful for the little queers,
That life has brought to me,
Little funnies that bring cheer,
To brighten up our mundane lives in IT...

Thank you God for giving me adequate looks,
So as I am always in others good books,
Thank you for giving me fine attitude,
Ample to protect me from the rude...

Thank you for teaching me speech,
That doesn’t make others screech,
And I am thankful that my writing,
Is good enough to use as a siege...

Yes I am thankful for all the little good things in life,
A tease,
a cheer,
some fun,
and laughter till tears…
This sums up all the good things,
Just simple good things,
That life in IT brings..


(*This poem is inspired by certain people of certain characteristics around the office whom I am thankful that I do not have to be in their shoes.)

Easier said than done

I have lost my chirp,
The usual happy-go-lucky me has gone hiding,
In its place, a lost soul,
wandering around without a direction.

I want rainbows,
I want flowers,
I want everything,
But I think I hold on too tightly,
Like water or sand,
It keeps slipping off my hands...

I must learn to let go,
Easier said than done...
How could I let go something so sweet?
How could I forgo something so beautiful?
How could I forget all things tender?
How could I ever let go?
Yes, it's easier said than done...

Mistake

If you were a mistake,
You were the best mistake I've ever made,
If loving you too much is a crime,
I am guilty of it this time.

And now I am serving the sentence,
with your silence,
and your distance...

I am losing more and more of myself,
Each time I feel I am losing you.

A little voice in my head

It’s truly amazing,
How you are always there,
I just didn’t realize,
Just how much you cared.

Don’t be afraid,
Be brave, be a General,
That’s what you said,
Whenever I fumble.

A sign of alert,
A whisper of hope,
A dare, A gut,
A little voice in my head.

Life brings lots of surprises,
Bitter, sour, sugary sweet,
All kind of spices,
Makes life beautiful indeed.

Still don’t know where we are heading,
Not sure where we came from,
One thing for sure,
To you, I will always belong…

Hurt

Eyes wide shut,
But I still can see what's going on,
Hurts like hell,
but I've gotta press on...

I tried to run,
but I can only hide,
I put on a smile,
but I cry inside...

Hurts like hell,
but I've gotta move on,
I can see,
but I let it be,
because all I want is for you to be happy...

Liberated?

Feels free,
like a heavy rock,
lifted from my chest...

Finally my beautiful brown eyes are opened,
I have been blind all these while,
Forsaking the closest and the dearest,

The sounds of birds singing,
Why was I so deaf all these while,
When sweetness was mine all along...

Feels lucky,
to have enjoyed the good,
and escaped the ugly...

Feels good...
to finally...
be able to be myself again...

Homemade recipe for an upset tummy - From a nurse with no license

A little bit of kindness,
and a whole lot of trust,
Add in a pinch of tenderness
and some hugs are a must.

Sift out the arrogance,
and fold in true friendship,
Top it up with some attention,
and gentle kisses from my lips.

Sprinkle on some laughter,
And a dash of romance,
Combine understanding together,
with love that's so intense.

Generous portions of compassion,
Stir in a spoonful of care,
Mix it well with patience,
Best results when feelings are mutually shared.

No More I Love Yous

No more midnight messages,
No more calls,
No more caring words,
No more sweet caresses,
No more goodbye kisses,
No more warm hand holding,
No more stolen glances,
No more schoolgirl flushes,
No more footsie tootsie,
No more comforting hugs,
No more consoling touches,
No more I love yous,
When there's no more vacancy.

Yet...
No less of missing,
(this feeling of longing,)
No less of wanting,
No less of waiting,
No less of hope,
No less of memories,
No less of dreams,
No less of feelings...

No more tomorrow,
yet no less of yesterday.

Foolish Heart

What is worse than being hurt by the one you love?
It's finding that the love was not true,
It's knowing that your love will never be returned,
Quoting excuses and obstacles,
All kinds of everything to avoid commitment,
And yet you foolishly do it willingly,
Because you cant stop yourself from making him happy...

What's worse than being played out?
It's seeing all the visible clues,
It’s ignoring all the obvious things that he tells you,
That's he's in it just for the play,
That's he's not going stay,
And yet you foolishly do it willingly,
Because you cant stop yourself from falling in love...

What's worse than being used?
It's knowing the fact that he doesn’t care,
And when you need him he wont be there,
It's losing your self respect,
Because you're just a game,
And yet you foolishly do it willingly,
Because you cant stop yourself from loving him.

If I fell in love with you...

This is taken from a Beatles song. The lyrics is just so beautiful... And it was sung so beautifully... that it went straight into my heart when I first heard this song in the movie, Across The Universe...

To those who are currently struck by the lovebug... make sure your head takes control over your heart... or you can be sure that your new love will end up in vain which leaves you very much in pain... if you fell in love... with the wrong person...

Incidentally, you can tell whether he's into you by testing if he knows the colour of your eyes... If he didn't get it right, it means he wasn't really looking at you. Your eyes are the window to your beautiful soul. People should be able to see the real you through your beautiful eyes. If they can't see it, it's their lost... move on... don't let them continue to hurt you... you deserve better.

If I fell in with you,
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand.
Cause I've been in love before
And I've found that love was more,
Than just holding hands.

If I give my heart to you,
I must be sure from the very start
That you would love me more than her.
If I trust in you,
Oh please, don't run and hide.

If I love you too,
Oh please, don't hurt my pride like her,
Cause I couldn't stand the pain,
And I would be sad if our new love was in vain,
So I hope you see,
That I would love to love you.
And that she will cry
When she learns we are two
If I fell in love with you.

What is love?

Love is...
something mysterious
like a message sent in the night
which leaves a longing feeling
that misses you whenever you are out of sight

Love is...
an urge to write you a poem
to describe my every dream
being jealous at the slightest competition
so much so that it makes you want to scream

Love is...
the strength to do the impossible
the heat that warms the longing heart
something that makes everything beautiful
even when everything else falls apart

But Love is...
also the only thing that can hurt,
so bad that it...
stops you from thinking,
stops you from working,
stops you from living...

Love can be full of deceit,
Love can be such a torture,
full of games,
full of shame,
full of blames,
neverending...

Winds of change

I have changed...
No more flawless, beautiful face,
A weary wrinkled smile in its place,
No more sexy, enticing figure,
Time and parenthood have taken its lustre.

You have changed...
No more I love you's,
Insecurity seeps between the truth,
No more homing pigeon,
Always hanging around with your legion.

We have changed...
How did we end up this way again?
Being top on each other's speed dial list,
But never on the called number list,

Where is the spring and the summer....
when my letting go makes you hold me tighter,
when you couldn't let me off your sight,
when you couldn't wait to make me your bride,
when my slightest temper,
made you bring toys, balloons and flowers,
my every wish was your command,
you would fulfill my every demand.

Where did all the tenderness go?
Leaving behind emptiness and pain...
I just dont know...
Why did things have to change?

Thank you for loving me...

I love the sweet nothings
You whisper in my ears
I love the way you tease my senses
filling me with pleasure and fear

I love the phone calls and the messages
indicating that its me that you miss
I love your enthusiastic lips
always eager to plant a tingling kiss

I love the way you hold my hand
which gently touches my soul
I love your willingness to love me
despite me being negative and cold

I just love all kinds of everything
you bring into my world...

Stolen Moments

Sweetness that seems so tender,
Soft words that makes hearts fonder,
A warm touch that brings serenity,
Gentle hugs and affection that instill tranquility.

Confusion and sleepless nights,
Commitment that doesn’t seem right,
Messages at 4 in the morning,
The void in the heart is craving.

Two lonesome hearts,
Yearning for love,
Sharing sweet nothings,
In a stolen moment.

Fear of unknown future,
Excitement makes the heart wander,
Thrills or spills or manipulative minds,
Only time will tell
what becomes of….
…..stolen moments.